With the Thanksgiving holiday on the horizon, most of us are caused to stop long enough and share what we are thankful for. No doubt that giving thanks and praise to our Lord should be a daily, many times daily, occurrence. Unfortunately, that is not always the case because our daily routines and normalcy's of life are things we have come to expect, myself included. This time of year is extra sweet and special at our house because it marks the anniversary date of which we received our first baby, Andrew. We adopted him in October of 2011, so the feelings and emotions run wild this time of year as we so often look back to our placement day and our first holiday season with him. Each year I write Drew a letter that we keep in a folder and will give him on his eighteenth birthday. The letter usually includes the sweet memories of the past year, new things he has learned to do, as well as my favorite things about being his mom. This year as I was trying to decide what to write to him, I kept coming back to the phrase, "God is so good." I knew that if He never learns anything else from me, that is the one thing I want him to know. So, I tried the best I could to tell him. The morning of his second placement date I went for a run. One of the songs that came on my ipod was "Mighty to Save". I was brought to tears as I thought about how not only did He save me from my own self and an eternity without Him, but how He saved Drew. Only God can take so many hearts from all over the country and knit them together the way he has ours, Drew's, and his sweet birth-mother's hearts. Only God can open of the heart of a young girl to act in the most unselfish way by choosing a life for her baby boy that she knew he deserved a chance at but wasn't ready to give him. Only God can use someone that fails Him daily and still allow her to serve Him every day. Only God can love so much that He would choose me to be the mom of this sweet little treasure and what I believe is a little glimpse of Heaven. He could have chosen anyone, but He chose me. I have always known that Jesus loves me. We sing about it as children, teach our kids to sing it, but do we truly know it and believe it? The same God who created the moon and sun, healed the sick, walked on water, defeated death, and is alive today knows our names. If you are still breathing and if you are reading this crummy blog right now, then He knows you, He loves you, and He has a plan for you. He is so good!
I am completely humbled and thankful at the fact that I could mean that much to anyone. God has a plan for my sweet Drew and for me as his mom. He didn't owe me a child, but somewhere in His vast plan He saw the two of us and knew we could accomplish so much more together than we could separately for His glory. I can almost see Him looking down and drawing a line with His finger as if He was connecting the dots of our two faces. Only God can do that. God is looking down on you today and is connecting your "dot" with another...with many more "dots". I am thankful as we all should be that God hasn't given up on us. I'm thankful that His plan is far higher and better than I could ever dream. Let Him be your God and guide...so you can just be the you that He so thoughtfully and purposefully made.
